Leap, and the net will appear

I’ve spent my whole life reading books.

I’m 23. I spent years and years of sitting alone with books in my hand on campus, in cafés, libraries and in parks. I wanted to become an author, but I never really felt “ready” or talented enough. So my dreams were shelved.

Today, I am picking it back up and reading through my dreams again. I am now in creative recovery, and I am learning to trust myself and my abilities. I can write. And even if it isn’t interesting, I’ll make it interesting eventually. The first step is to just start. The power is in my hands.

I was searching for a while finding books on how to write. I started journaling. I watched videos on how to write. I read more books, and made a reading list to expand my vocabulary. I read other people’s blogs, other people’s perspectives, and never really putting my own thoughts out there. I was in the shadows; watching other people live my dream because I was too scared to take action.

As a creative, you are your own biggest challenge. You are your own worst enemy. You never feel like you are enough, especially when you are surrounded by people doing “much better than you”. It’s easy to fall into the trap of comparison, or finding an excuse to not chase your dreams because you don’t feel ready. You will never feel fully ready. You have to just take action and everything else will follow.

Just start. It will never be perfect at first. On average it takes 10,000 hours to master a hobby. That is 416 days, or 59 weeks, or 13 months, or just over a year, according to googles mathematics. That isn’t actually a lot when you think about it. You can make time for the things that you love. And if you don’t, well, you didn’t really want it that bad to begin with. Or maybe you just have too many responsibilities and that must be difficult.

I will end my first entry here. My debut is short, and that’s okay. I took the chance and I hope this journey continues. These are the first few minutes of my 10,000 hour dream. I leaped, and I hope that the universe helps me with this and does not let me fall.

Hope you enjoy your night (? It’s 00:06?)